“Hope is tough. It’s tougher to be uncertain than certain. It’s tougher to take chances than to be safe. And so hope is often seen as weakness, because it’s vulnerable, but it takes strength to enter into that vulnerability of being open to the possibilities.”

Rebecca Solnit

I was born in Hamburg, studied in Göttingen and Leipzig and lived and studied for half a year in California, USA und for two years in Transcarpathia, Ukraine. I like to explore new places.

At the moment I seem to find myself in quite a transitional phase. I’m not sure if this is the midlife crisis, but somehow making the rigght decisions feels much easier than it did before. I’m excited to see where this might lead. Right now it just means to let go of some things I got used to, but don’t need anymore and exploring what else is out there. I write about these explorations on my blog. Projects, art, books, encounters. I hope that this is encouraging and inviting to provoke some form of exchange.

Thank you for being here. I’d love to hear from you.

Web and Media design

with love and experience

waterbear mediadesign

Waterbear Mediadesign is my design company. I design websites, brochures, flyers, etc – pretty much whatever you need.

I enjoy my work and I’m good at it too. Please see my services, portfolio and prices for more information.

If you like it here on this website, we will probably get along very well and it would be my pleasure to work for you.

Every year I offer to make a few websites for free for smaller groups, collectives or organizations that don’t have the means to pay for a website, but work for a good cause. Please do not be shy to get in touch if that’s you.


I always loved drawing. After graduating from High School I thought long and hard wether I should study art or go into the humanities. I decided to go for an MA in Cultural Anthropology, Politics and Russian (you could do that in Germany at the time). You might notice these interest when reading through the blog ;).

So visual arts moved a bit into the background during my University years and after, while music became more and more important in my life the whole time. Two years ago I got back in touch with visual arts by curating a transnational exhibition series. In the fall of 2018 I took up drawing again. In June 2019 I opend my first exhibition.

In my shop you can buy some of my drawings and prints.


Lola Magazine: Local Hero

Lola Magazine: Local Hero

Lola Magazine: Verena Spilker On Elevating Opportunities for Artists in Berlin and BeyondVerena Spilker On Elevating Opportunities for Artists in Berlin and Beyond The TQU founder's simple advice for those looking to support Berlin's queer artists: ‘Be brave and be...

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Sieggessäule: Stirn Bieten

Sieggessäule: Stirn Bieten

"Ich habe mich erniedrigt und hilflos geführt", erzählt die Aktivistin Verena Spilker, als sie, eine lesbische Frau, auf der Straße mal wieder von einem cis Heteromann sexuell belästigt wurde. about Siegessäule Magazin: Juni 2018 U-Bahn, Parks, nächtliche Straßen –...

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I’m currently preparing a podcast about freedom: Finding Freedom – Explorations into Personal and Communal Liberation. It’s exciting.


The blog is full of photos, places, events and other wonderful things to explore, taste, feel, see and try out. Come on in and take a look around.

Past Projects

For 16 years I had a weekly radio show called balm&creak. I’ve also published three issues of MOM – Make Out Magazine together with some friends. And I’m the founder and main person behind Transnational Queer Underground.